Miles to go before I sleep.

Nutrition program, week two is off to a rocky start. I had a good Monday! I had a TERRIBLE Tuesday, complete with something like 400 extra calories of peanut butter---had a little binge moment, am trying to forgive myself and move on. Having a decent Wednesday! Took an extra bootcamp class this morning to make up for overeating yesterday, and, whoa, are anyone else's calves on fire?! I'm already plotting ways to get the boyfriend to give me a massage when he gets home--I think if I offer him money it might work!

I am so tired. On the message board for the nutrition program, someone posted about having all this energy, meanwhile I'm struggling to keep my eyelids pulled up--at 11 in the morning! I. Am. So. Tired. Today is my day off work (!!) and all I've done is lazed around, reading, and catching up on TV shows and, as always, chopping more baggies of vegetables. I feel like such a bum. I usually fill my free days with cleaning and laundry and errands and walking and all sorts of other seemingly mundane but necessary things. Not today, no no, it has been a lay in the bathtub reading "Blood, Butter & Bones" for an hour (if you're a foodie like me and looking for a great book, try it). I just do not have energy. I'm totally zapped.

I think it's just my body adjusting to all these changes--better eating habits, more intense workouts, not smoking (three weeks down, a lifetime to go, thank you very much!)--all very healthy and positive changes, but I'm really putting myself through the ringer and I do think it's taking a toll. So I'm going to lay here in bed, blogging and watching reruns of Six Feet Under, and, yes, I will probably feel a little guilty about being so lazy, but maybe I've earned a day off! And, hey, at least I'm not sitting here digging into a bag of potato chips. My love handles are going to thank me one day.